In the beginning, sorta

I started a blog a while ago to track my personal growth and progress. I have not been consistent in documenting my progress here but it is not to say that I have not grown. In fact, my personal growth in several areas of my life have been so significant that those around me have witnessed not just a change but a transformation. I have documented my growth in journals so in the next several weeks I will share snippets, insights and examples of this transformation, but today I wanted to share my biggest takeaway from my journey: that if you TRULY want to grow and change, it will happen; BUT it takes HARD WORK, COMMITMENT, PERSEVERANCE, CONSISTENCY and COMMUNITY. I would not be here today, a moxie phoenix with gumption, had it not been for God’s direction, my friends and family’s support and a strong dedication to myself, my vision and my mission. I welcome you into a vulnerable place – my heart, as I share my joys, strengths, fears, weaknesses, disappointments, flightiness, flakiness, wit, humor, anger, despair, happiness and blessings with raw (sometimes poorly grammared) intensity. I warn you I am NOT politically correct, you will often not agree with me, nor even understand my quirky ruminations, but what I do hope you take away is that the process towards self-actualization can be paradoxically possible to those that want enlightenment bad enough. Mostly; I want to convey the LOVE I FEEL for MYSELF – I did not even really like myself as early as 2 years ago. Successful personal growth comes from a place in our core where we begin to feel agape-love for our-self despite our-self. Once you accept and love yourself – including your flaws, trash, vulnerabilities, junk and all - and see that you truly are fearfully and wonderfully made by THE CREATOR and MASTER of the UNIVERSE and He yearns for your well-being and loves you like an unconditional parent loves their prince or princess, you will begin to bloom wherever you are planted, wherever that is. You no longer have to strive to be loved or accepted by others, because you will understand that YOU ARE ENOUGH AT THIS MOMENT, and as long as you always do your best, that is enough trouble for the day. You are free to rest and appreciate each moment for what it is – even the tough ones. I pray my transformation becomes a catalyst to inspire you to love yourself and rise from your ashes as a beautiful phoenix as well.
Namaste.